My trusty assistant...

sure he sleeps most of the day and can't make me coffee but he's good company...

Ugg...

I was planning on taking photos for the shop today but it's overcast and there is not enough light coming into my apartment to get a decent photo. I have a ton of new inventory that I'm anxious to list. I was playing around yesterday with some photos, I think I got some decent shots...I was losing light fast and usually I have Mike's help to set up each shot so things went a little slower than usual. Here's one of the shots I really like.

What now?

Well it's Wednesday afternoon, almost 2:00, and I'm sitting in my sweats with Peewee in my lap, drinking tea and writing this blog post. Why, do you ask? Because on Friday, I was laid off from my job. It seems to be a blessing in disguise, now I have a chance to focus on Kopah and the wedding, and a million other things that were on my to-do list. It seems to be a blessing, but it's still been difficult to get through.

My mom says it's like a death, you go through the full range of emotions, and it's true. I've been angry, sad, anxious. I've cried more than I thought I would. When you're let go from a job it's a different experience then when you leave by your own accord. You don't have that freeing feeling that comes with giving your notice and walking out the door on your last day, knowing you never have to worry about expense reports or databases. Instead, you're left carrying all your stuff home in a box and wondering what the hell just happened.

It's everything I expected and then, it's nothing I expected. The days go by much quicker now. I am waking up and getting started at the same time every morning, but before I know it, it's lunch time and then Mike is walking through the front door. It's lonely, and quiet but in a nice way. I miss the girls in my office and being able to talk about last night's episode of The City (do we trust Jay or is he totally playing Whitney for a fool?!) but the quiet is nice and now I can get things done without interruptions. I also thought I'd have a lot more time to do the things I want to do but I find that I'm so busy with errands and random things that come up that I hardly get to do anything for me. In any case, it's an adjustment that will take some getting used to.

I'm trying to take the whole thing in stride because honestly, this is what I've always wanted. To work for myself, be my own boss, make my own hours and now I can. Only now, I have to make it work...there's no job to fall back on, no security blanket of any kind. It's just the motivation I've been looking for...

Missing you

I've been missing my little blog lately...I've just been so crazy with other projects (i.e. wedding & honeymoon planning!) that I haven't really had the time or energy to post here and the day-to-day life of me has been rather uninspiring lately. I really don't want to bore everyone with a 2 paragraph post about what I had for breakfast so the posting here has been light but that doesn't mean I've been slacking!

If you pay any attention to the sidebars of this blog you will see that I have been slowly adding to the "curing rack." I am determined not to let my new year's resolutions slip through the cracks this year! I even sustained a minor soaping injury this weekend to prove it. A 10 pound soap mold dropped onto my stove and my ring finger got caught in the middle of it all, the soap mold won and I almost lost my finger nail!

I've also started a new blog and while I'm not totally committed to it at this point, it's something I am passionate about and have been wanting to do for so long. It's slow getting started but I am blaming the all-consuming wedding planning, it's my new excuse for everything!

Photo: Flickr

An Adorable Valentine's Day Project

Via Inchmark

Here's to...

tea parties and dress up! Have a wonderful long weekend everyone! Happy Valentines Day!

Photo: Flickr

Checking in...

I'm still here, just swamped with a million things going on right now. I started off the year with a really great momentum and somewhere I kind of lost my focus with Kopah which sucks because I had really good intentions for this year.

I think I kind of got side tracked when I found a location for my wedding and went into full planning mode. Everything else sort of got pushed to the side. But I am still here and I am trying to get focused again. It really is a goal of mine to make this business successful. Sometimes I think I'm crazy trying to do that in an economy like the one we are in now but I am trying to remain positive and hopeful! After all, I need something to fall back on if I lose my job.